Octomom says she ‘screwed up kids' lives’

Mother of octuplets, Nadya Suleman, said she has motherhood regrets in online video

Mother of octuplets Nadya Suleman has said she had made mistakes and bad decisions in a video posted on radaronline.

‘I screwed myself. I screwed up my life, I screwed up my kids' lives,’ she said. ‘I have to put on this strong facade and I have to pretend like I don't regret it.’ Miss Suleman also said she didn't tell her sperm donor she was having more children after the first six, and fears his resentment for the betrayal.

In the video shot in a fondue restaurant, Miss Suleman says she used frozen fertilised embryos left over from her first conceptions to become pregnant with eight additional children. The donor didn't know she had the leftover embryos, she said.

‘I went behind his back and used them all,’ she says. ‘He didn't want me to. I feel so much guilt for that.’

The camerawoman, identified by the site as Miss Suleman's best friend, says at one point that the sperm donor has a wife and family.

But Miss Suleman warns her away from giving away too much about the man, adding that ‘he'd lose everything he's created in his own life’ if his identity was revealed.

Miss Suleman says her older children are increasingly curious about who their biological father is. She refuses to identify him, saying she wants to protect his privacy, but also wants him ‘to somehow, privately, secretly know (the children) in a controlled manner.’

Miss Suleman gave birth to the world's longest-surviving set of octuplets on January 26.

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