John Galliano's First Interview: Kate Moss Saved Me

Two years on from those anti-semitic comments, John Galliano finally speaks about drink, drugs, and how Kate Moss helped him

John Galliano has given his first interview since his anti-semitic rant in a French bar, revealing that the remarks were the "worst thing he's said in his life". The fashion designer has kept a low profile following the scandal, which cost him his job at Dior in 2011. But today, he's explained to Vanity Fair how he's rebuilding his life and why he "didn't mean it".

He says of the comments: "It's the worst thing I have said in my life, but I didn't mean it… I have been trying to find out why that anger was directed at this race. I now realize I was so f*****g angry and so discontent with myself that I just said the most spiteful thing I could."

The 52-year-old insists that he is not anti-semitic, nor racist, and goes on to say that he credits Kate Moss for helping him to recover.

He adds: "Creating Kate’s wedding dress saved me personally because it was my creative rehab. She dared me to be me again."

The supermodel asked John to design her wedding gown shortly after his dismissal from Dior.

He says: "At first alcohol was like a crutch outside of Dior. Then I would use it to crash after the collections. I'd take a couple of days to get over it, like everyone.

"But with more collections, the crash happened more often, and then I was a slave to it. Then the pills kicked in because I couldn't sleep. Then the other pills kicked in because I couldn't stop shaking."

The designer is now sober and has been working with the Anti-Defamation league as well as reading up on Jewish history and the holocaust.

He adds: "Even now I’m still learning every day how many people I hurt."

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